Heart Disease sucks!

Okay so being 34 and having had a heart attack is bad enough right? Apparently not, because out of no where I get these horrific chest pains. It has been 7 months since the day that changed my life, and for the most part I feel good. I still have my days, especially when it is humid (Thank God for FALL!!) but now it's better. Don't get me wrong last spring I thought I was in Hell. I couldn't do anything without it making me feel bad. I popped Nitro like they were candy in the beginning. Then slowly things began to settle down and I could feel that I was healing. Now I can go weeks or even months without needing a nitro, however, when I do need them it is BAD.

Last night is the perfect example. I felt like shit, I had the aching pain under my left boob. You know the one that makes it feel like your breast is made of lead and has been put on your chest for the amusement of someone other than you? I had a head ache, and was getting pretty freaking cranky. So I take a nitro and it gets better but doesn't go away, so I take another one. Guess what that does? Drops my Blood pressure to 95/54. No freaking wonder I felt like crap. So I eat to bring it up and take some tylenol for the headache then procede to distract myself by playing with the kids.
Is it ok to call it playing? I don't think so since they are older. I don't think I've said much about them..Nick is 14 and has his first girlfriend whooohooo!!! Natasha will be 12 in 3 weeks and Mikayla is 8 and tries her best to keep the older two in line LOL.....she thinks she is the mommy most days :P

So what I mean by playing is that we sat on the living room floor and talked then I tickled kayla and she accidentally kicked nick in the chin and he split his lip and tasha laughed at both of them. Meanwhile I have a mom 911 in the bathroom with Nick. guess I don't have to worry about him kissing anyone today LOL!!!!

Where was I? Oh right distracting myself...see I'm getting very good at that :)

So after about 3 hours I start to feel better, just tired. I just can't believe how a little angina can ruin your whole freaking evening.

I slept like shit last night and then wake up this morning, and my eye is worse. Probably from the drop in my BP yesterday. Guess my date with Dean Koontz and Odd Thomas will have to wait until I can see well enough to read again.

Anyone else have angina that just kicks their ass?